My boyfriend and I had been together for the better part of four years. Admittedly, the relationship had some real problems which we recently decided we couldn't fix. We thought if we kept trying to force the relationship to work, we'd just keep making each other unhappy.
Now though, I just feel numb. It's as though my brain doesn't recognize that we've ended things. I cried while we were talking, but now I don't really know how to process my emotions. I'm not being masochistic, but I don't know how to feel like we've broken up. I recognize that there are emotions I need to work through, I just don't know how to get to them.
Maybe, because for the last year we were long distance, I feel numb because it's not like the breakup suddenly ripped him out of my life. Does that mean that until I see him and then he leaves I will still feel in limbo? I just don't want to stay in some emotional holding pattern forever because we couldn't make things work. Does anyone have any advice for me?