I don't know why but I can't stop obsessing about this ex that he broke up with me for. I look at her Facebook pictures, her Myspace, and I feel like I have to live up to this person I have never even met. I look at her pictures and think about how much prettier she is than me, even though when I showed her picture to some of my friends, they didn't think she is pretty at all. My husband does not even talk to her anymore, and he hasn't for years. I feel like a crazy person when I say that I feel like I have to live up to this person, when I don't even know her. Every time my husband and I get in a fight, I constantly have it running through my head that it's because he wants to be with her not me. But he married me so I don't know why I think that.
I tried talking to him about it too, I told him what I do . . . I ask him questions about their relationship, but why do I care so much and let it bother me? It also really bothers me that his friends bring her up sometimes too . . . I don't know why it bothers me so much and I don't know why I obsess over this person I don't know, but I feel like I can't get passed it and it's ruining our relationship.
I love my husband so much, and I would give anything to feel better and not let this haunt me. Please help.