The thing is, some days I feel really blue and lonely, no matter how busy or distracted I am. I start thinking about the fact that I lost the guy that I thought was the love of my life and my best friend. I don't feel sad about him, I feel sad about the fact that I don't know if I'll ever find something like that again. I loved him, and we had an amazing relationship up to some point where it all crashed, because he said he needed time alone. I start thinking if I'll have that kind of deep relationship again in my life. I'm 26 going in 27 in a month, and I don't feel like it's so easy at this age to meet someone and be friends for a couple years and then start a successful relationship like before. So basically, I end up feeling I'll be forever alone. This happens about once a week, and no matter what I do, I can't get over it for like a day. For instance, today I woke up feeling like that after having an amazing day yesterday, for no reason at all, and spent all day like that.
Also, I was talking to a friend of mine one of these days. He is a great guy and I've always had a crush on him, a harmless crush because we were both in relationships. He just broke up too, and I started suggesting that maybe we should go out more now that we're both single, and trying for him to understand that I liked him. I don't want a relationship, I just want like a friends with benefits situation. But he said some things that made me think like I am in his "friend zone" already. I felt kind of rejected, and that felt bad, so this just made my situation worse . . . So, what to do? I want to be positive and happy all of the time. Thank you all for your advice