Aside from all of that, I love him so much. I can't imagine being without him. A little over a year ago I got out of an eight year relationship and I feel more sad thinking about this coming to an end than I did with the other guy. We're both 28 and going to school, still living at home. His ex has the kids and he has them whenever he can take them. We are both working two jobs to pay our own separate bills and I'm worried that we won't really have the money anytime soon to get a reversal (I'm only saying that because the sooner you do it the better the odds, not because I want one right now). We've talked about marriage and I can really see myself being happy with this man, I really do love him a lot. Another side note . . . it's been really hard because I know my family and friends don't really approve and they're always asking me what I'm doing and blah blah . . . and I know they're just keeping my best interests in mind, but it really hurts my feelings. I really do like him as a person but know that I could do better. I know that I could, but that doesn't mean I want to.
I just feel so torn on what I should do. We were talking about it the other day and he thinks I really need to take it in the gravity of the situation, that I may never be able to have kids with him and could I still be happy with him if I couldn't? I think I could, there's always adoption and other options available. But then I think, there's so many other men out there, ones who are already established in their lives, with good jobs, and no kids that I could possibly be happy with, too . . . I just really need some unbiased advice because it's so hard to talk to anyone I know because I know what they're going to tell me.