Not forgive, because you need to do something about your situation. Have you talked to your husband about counseling? It's not healthy for your kids to grow up in a family where their parents hate each other.

Men will marry the wonderful women they fall in love with, whether they're by themselves or accompanied by 18 children. There are single Dads with 3 kids out there too.

You don't love him anymore? Leave, and take the time you need to work on remembering all the reasons why you're such a great gal - starting with an unquenchable thirst for happiness. You only have one life, OP, only ONE. You owe it to yourself, and also to your kids who look up to you and will model their lives according to what you've taught them, to always be chasing your dreams and trying to be as happy and fulfilled as possible.

Walk out that door, and start a new life - alone is not always sad, sometimes alone is free.

You made a commitment when you got married. Stop feeling sorry for yourself and try to make your marriage work. Saying you hate your husband is a very serious thing. Find out why you feel this way and work towards fixing it. Talk to your husband. Marriage isn't always easy. You need to put in effort or else you'll be miserable just like you are now.

You shouldnt beat yourself up for staying, alot of people stay in situations for the same reason..BUT i do hope you get the courage to do what makes you happy, life is too short to stay in unhappy situations like that

I forgot to add that unless your husband cheated on you, you should work on fixing your marriage. If he did cheat, then you have every reason to leave just like Karlotta suggested. Other than that, you should make every effort to communicate with your husband and try to make things work. I just hate how people easily give up on their marriage because they're 'not happy.' I'm not saying you should be miserable, but I am saying that marriage is a very serious thing and divorce shouldn't be the first option. Sheesh, at least TRY and make things work instead of just complaining.

I say forgive because, you can't help the way you feel BUT you do need to seek counseling...I think seeking a marriage counselor should be your 1st option.

Try to salvage your relationship...obviously you do want a family. No relationship is perfect...you can't just walk away everytime times get tough, you will NEVER be in a relationship if you do that.

No one wants to be alone forever - humans are hardwired for companionship. Without knowing more about why you "hate" your husband, I don't think we can advise whether to stay or go, but I can forgive you for living a lie since most people do so at one point or another. I just feel bad for you living a life you're miserable in.

L7amiguita, it could be something besides cheating. She didn't specify. It could be abuse, verbal or physical or both. Or it could be a mix of things.

I said forgive, because I can understand how someone could marry someone for fear of being alone - OR if you fell in love with the person and fell out of love for various reasons. Being alone isn't always bad, and you could definitely find someone new I'm sure, but it's a risk you probably shouldn't take immediately. Divorce isn't an easy thing to go through, and you need to think things through. There have been some really good suggestions so far. I would definitely say you should consider counseling. Even if you "hate" your husband, think of your kids and any other repurcussions as well.

No matter what you decide about your marriage, you won't be alone because you have three children to take care of. Is your fear of being alone the reason you got married in the first place? Surely you didn't hate your husband when you married him, try your best to work things out, and don't let fear be a motivator.

repercussion* lol

Ha! I don't buy that excuse AT ALL... I am a 37 year old mom of two and when I got divorced (at 33!), they were beating down my door! I NEVER had a problem finding a man. I now have THE GREATEST fiance, who is 4 years younger than me and has no kids.... my kids adore him, and vice versa. There are definitely great guys out there who will still want you. You just have to be an awesome person too!
(I went from being a completely dependent, but miserable (supported financially)stay at home mom to a working single mom (now engaged)and I COULD NOT BE HAPPIER!!!! )
No excuses! Your life is what YOU make it.

I agree 100% with L7amiguita.

I would figure out what specifically about "being alone forever" it is that you are afraid of so much...and then go from there

I think some people in here have said it, get help and get better asap. And if you're truly out of love, please separate, don't let your children witness a loveless marriage for too long, they too notice things. Be brave honey, go and stay with your mum or your sis for a month and figure it out.

I think you should be forgiven but also not forgiven at the same time.

I think this because it's wrong of you to not want to be with your husband for that long and have his kids especially when their that young.

If your going to leave him do it now, because honestly your already late as it is.

So, and be kind to your children and talk them through, and even take them if you'd like it.

Not forgive. I really think you should do something about your situation. Staying in a relationship for fear of being alone is not fair for you, your children, or your husband. If you married him, you loved him once. Have enough respect for him and yourself to let it go. Being alone is better than living a lie. It's difficult to let go of a life you are accustom to but in the long run you will realize you deserve to be happy, and so does your husband.

I feel like I need more information before I can vote. Why do you hate your husband? Does he treat you badly or have you just grown apart or something?

You shouldn't stay in a relationship you're unhappy in though. You and your husband both deserve to be happy. You children also deserve to have parents that are happy, whether they are together or divorced. I think that being in an unhappy relationship is much worse than being alone and who knows, maybe your husband hates you too.

Not Forgive, and this is not because your lying to your husband, but because you are hurting your children. Regardless of what some parents think kids aren't dumb, in fact they are very intuitive and probably are all too aware that something "isn't right". So if you want to teach your children that being unhappy with there lives is okay, and that they shouldn't do anything about it then you keep doing what your doing. But if you want to have healthy happy children, and you want to be healthy and happy get counseling and work on your marriage, or get a divorce. I have a friend with 3 kids and she has no problem dating, and I'm almost positive she will be married one day!

Forgive--your feelings are understandable--but you shouldn't be married if you feel that way and are unable or unwilling (through therapy or whatever) to change it. If you really can't or won't try to change those feelings, then it will be better for you, your husband, and your children if you don't stay and becoming a toxic element of your family that hurts everyone involved.

I knew a woman much like that at a former job of mine... thing is, like you, she was living a lie. She hated her husband, had nothing in common with him, and she had two children with him. She only stayed with him to, "have a family for her kids". That's not good. You should be happy for YOU... you were born to be happy, and to make your KIDS happy. Thing is, if YOU AREN'T happy, then your kids will sense that. They want you to be happy, even if that meant you had to divorce/seperate from your husband. Initially of course it will/would be heartbreaking for your children, but kids are resilient, and they will 'get over' your break up, and eventually congratulate you for having the COURAGE and RESOLVE to leave the jerk (their dad)... I'm sure you have good reasons to dislike him, and I'm sure your kids KNOW and perhaps FEEL the same way. It's really more unfortunate for the children, as they come first.

I wish you luck in 'being true to yourself' Mrs. 33 yrs old... May your future be a better one, as good as you imagine it to be... and for your children as well. May you find true love someday. Take care.

that's pathetic. I feel sorry for you. more sorry for your husband though.

i agree with the post above, and i wouldn't approach divorce with an attitude that you're wrecking your home. your children may very well hate it if you separate, but i knew that my parents weren't in love and them getting divorced when i was young was literally one of the best things that's ever happened to me. maybe i was a special case but i can't even fathom them together now, they made a big mistake and i'm very grateful they fixed it.

*** oh and by the post above i meant by "abeautifulmind"

I have to forgive because NO ONE knows what it takes to be in a marriage and what happens inside that marriage, behind closed doors, is a different subject.
It seems unfair to be so judgmental when I too have momentary thoughts of hate towards my husband!?!

You should be more concerned about your happiness and not being alone. Even if you're not "with someone" you're not alone.

Forgive, b/c no matter what you do, it's a hard choice to make. I do think you should try to fix whatever is going wrong with your marriage. Like others have said, see a counselor and try and fix the problem. But if that doesn't work after you have truly tried, then you should leave. Karlotta's advice was good, after you have tried to fix things. Trust me, it is scary to have to be alone after being together with someone for a long time...but once you try it out and get over your fear, it's worth it. You will remember who you are, and remember why you want to try to get out there and live life and be happy!!! You'll want to live again!!! Don't miss out on those feelings, it's important for you to be happy too. And the kids will pick up on how you feel. Do what's best for all of you, make everyone happy.

Not forgive. You need to realize you have to go thru something by yourself, but your never alone. Whats so wrong with being single anyways. I am, with one child too. We do what we want. I dont see any issue in that.

I say forgive. My mum has gone through the same thing. Even though she was unhappy she was staying with my dad for me and my brother. It's hard being in this situation but you just have to take a stand and make a decision. It's worse staying with him and being miserable and fooling yourself. Don't be afraid of being alone, it can be an empowering thing, plus there are a lot of great guys out there that wouldnt mind being with u even if you have three kids.
I hope everything goes well.

Puddlesworth: that's kind of harsh, considering no one knows the full details of the situation here. I know two married women who have tried to make things work and when one party is unwilling to put in the effort, it has left them feeling hopeless, because its not as if the decision to separate (whether or not there are children involved) comes easily to anyone. One of them did marry for fear of being alone, yes. The other one though, was in love and her husband just changed after they married, he became a completely different person, verbally abusive and making her feel small a lot of the time. He was no longer the person she married.
For both of them, being of a culture that has a very low divorce rate (one in which it is not considered acceptable AT ALL), I can see how the decision to separate would have a few more sides to it for some women than what we're used to in the west. Not only do they face social stigmas of actually getting the divorce from elders in their community, but men in thier culture arent usually raised to be open to the idea of marrying a woman with kids either, even if they can accept the divorce factor.
For the women I spoke about above, the decision to stay in her marriage (for one of them) was partially because she was afraid to leave and partially because realistically, for women of her culture, you are not likely to find someone who is willing to marry you if you have children from a previous marriage. It hurts me everyday to see her unhappy but I cannot begin to understand her situation, because to me it would come down to a question of happy or not, and then fixable or not, and go from there. For her its not that easy.

To the woman who posted the question, I do wish you the best of luck. If you havent tried counseling, you should, because its worth trying to fix something this important. If it doesnt work out, then know that most kids would rather have happy but separated parents that are civil to one another than have to constantly witness fights and feel their parents resentment and hate towards one another.

u hate ure husband? there obviously would be a reason. but, my advice is, if u are unhappy with him, tell him. communication is very important in a relationship. talk about it, try to make it work. if it doesnt work leave him. if u are sure that u cant be with him, then dont. ofcourse, there will be someone, lots who would accept u. take action. first, communicate. if it doesnt work, leave him, and see where life takes u. u might just find something that uve always wanted.

I am the mother of 4 children who lived for a long time in a loveless marriage. I finally found the strength to divorce him and while going through the divorce, I met my old highschool sweetheart. We are engaged but I am having doubts about starting a life with him. I do love him. I am afraid of being "stuck" with a man if things don't work out and I am also afraid of being alone. He loves me. If I break things off to figure out how I really feel. I wonder if another man could ever love me.